Cynthia Behr said: August 18, 2008 8:50 am PST
One suggestion, give yourself one thing a day that needs to get done - just one goal for the day. In the first couple of months, that one thing was getting out of bed and showering. If I just got myself in the shower, everything else fell into place. After that became second-nature, I gave myself one more goal each day such as call the utility company or pay a bill. Everything else would take care of itself and it did. What saved my life after losing my son was learning something that I had never mastered or done before Paul. I had skiied, but in no way succeeded. I began to ski with fervor. Now it is my passion. Every weekend, God would join me on the drive and meet me up on that mountain. He revealed things to my heart like never before. I lost my faith - not my belief in God - just my faith that He heard my prayer. He pursued me and won my heart, again. I thank God for that mountain and for the gift of skiing. I chose to do a life list or as the movie last year called it Bucket List. My list was all the things I wanted to accomplish in life. When I started this list, I had no umph to do any of it. I did not care about anything - rotating the tires, checking the mail, or visiting Italy. It made no nevermind to me, because it was all pointless anymore. I began to pursue the list anyway, until I found the internal desire. Some of the things I accomplished since writing that list three years ago are: white-water rafting, cruise vacation, visit New York again, hike a 14,000 ft Mtn (14'er) Pikes Peak!, ski a black diamond!, visit the Bahamas, rock little babies to sleep at night (my second child), write a book (my name is published as an editor - hey, it still counts), and more I can't even remember off-hand. God, skiing, and that list saved my life. God has a journey for you all as well. I pray for His blessings to be poured out in your lives.